Why can't I find the right combination in a guy? Tim is too old. The nice looking boy who sits in front of me in homeroom is an ass. I shall spend my life as a spinster.

Several people randomly walked through my room today. I was sitting there, on the laptop, and a woman I don't know walks in my room. My mother follows, shows her around withour the slightist glance in my direction, and then they leave. The same thing happens a couple hours later with another woman I don't know. What are we selling the house and no one told me? Later after the 2nd lady, I look up from the computer to see a guy staring at me. He's my brother's-friend's-brother, and I know him vaguley.

I have a fetish involving the word vaguley. Might be because I would describe most of my life vague.

Anyway, here's this 17 year old male I don't really know who suddenly shows up in my bedroom. What would you do? Well we played ball. Back and forth over the bed. Once the ball went under the bed, so he went to get it, and came up on my side, between my legs.

He and his brother, who was over playing with my brother, swordfought. I joined in, winning I may add, several fights. At one point, we wrestled around a bit, and he ended up on top of me.

What's with a life full of no male interaction for 3 something years, and in then suddeley, two episoids with the other side of the speices, in 1 month! A record I am sure, although who knows if anyone then me would count iether one as an "episoid" at all, and would mearly say I am paranoid.

Yes, you're right, I am. I have no idea how to act around the opisite sex. This would be for lack of practice. And I'm at the age where people don't practice anymore: it's the real thing. I know I'm not ready for anything of the sort; I've never even had a boyfriend. But someday I would like to. Problem is, I don't know how.

Isn't it funny the way there are instructions for using shampo? But no instructions on things that need it, like how to snare a man.

Cheers,

Sydney

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